Raindrops of love.

Hello, hello.

So I just have to share this....I spent some time with Christ tonight. I got a journal from my sister for Christmas which was perfect because I was coming to an end of the current-held journal. And for those of you who journal, it's kind of a sad day as you scribble on the last page...and yet at the same time it sparks a moment of reflection. Tonight, through this process of reflecting, I realized that in roughly four years, little under, more like 3.5; I don't remember much. I don't remember the bad. I mean I do, but not really, not emotionally. Everything, good and bad, just blends together. Truthfully, all I can really see is a God who loves me so incredibly much, a God who has never given up on me, and a God who has continuously healed me. Most of all, I’ve found a God whose hand is totally and completely at work on me and in my life.

After writing to Him I began reading some of His love story to us (hey, it's the only romance I have right now, give me some credit, ha). As I read His Word I just couldn't help but feel overwhelmed. It was like every other sentence I had to take a breather because I just couldn't handle all the joy I was experiencing.

It felt like little raindrops of love were pouring down on me. I realized that as small, and as delicate, and as broken, and as full, and as alive, and as healed, and as hurting, just as I am, I can only handle drops of His love and mercy...

I know He has so much more to drop but I don't think I can handle it all at once. I can't soak it all in right now, I'd drown, ha.

So, gently and lovingly He pours…showers, sprinkles, and at times He even holds off on me until I'm ready and willing to accept just a few more drops. It’s beautiful. I mean how He works. How He knows us so well. How He is so much more than I can handle. I love it.

And as for Heaven? It must be like standing under a waterfall of his Love.

How amazing.

Cheering you on as you come to know that through it all God is working.

May you trust that His hand is at work. We may not see it now, but we will. May you hope in all the rain drops of love, of mercy, and of grace that God has in store for you. And may you know that one day, we're all going be dancing under a waterfall!

Kaylee